So i broke my fast after like 36 hours but I’m starting again now for as long as possible. I’m only 4 lbs away from my first Gw (100) so I’m trying to stay positive! At least my stomach doesn’t look so fucking fat when I sit down anymore and my hipbones are showing a little. My leggings are way too baggy now and my size 0 sports bra fits again 😊
“It’s an amazing experience doing that. When you’re so skinny that you can hardly walk up a flight of stairs … you’re, like, this being of pure thought. It’s like you’ve abandoned your body. That’s the most Zen-like state I’ve ever been in my life. Two hours sleep, reading a book for 10 hours straight without stopping … unbelievable. You couldn’t rile me up. No rollercoaster of emotions. As soon as you start putting the food back in your stomach, the rollercoaster comes back.”
-Christian Bale on his weight loss in “The Machinist”
Also me: watches hours of food tutorial videos, weighs my food in exact amounts, lives on less daily calories that a baby, is in a near-constant state of tears because I’m a fat piece of shit, feels euphoric when I drop any amount of weight, would kill for a cupcake but would probably kill myself as well
